|i don't know where to go.
||[Dec. 10th, 2008|09:19 am]
|||||dead memories- slipknot||]|
So, I've come to realize that I miss a lot of things, a lot of friends, and a lot of places. To try and go back to any of that... things would never be the same.
I feel like I can't decided things for myself. I have this bittersweet feeling about where I am in life right now, and I don't know how to react. I don't have anyone to go to... everyone is far gone. Where did the time go, you know?
I feel like I just sit here all day, wasting away.
I want to change things, but still somehow keep them the same.
Which, is not even possible. Changing one thing now would change everything.
I need to do more, but I'm not sure how yet. There's so many restrictions and limitations.
I feel certain ways, but I'm afraid that those feelings are wrong and I don't know how to deal with them. I almost feel like I'm stuck.
I just think I'm not completely sure what I want.
Or maybe I'm just afraid to do what I want.