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(no subject) [Jun. 28th, 2010|11:41 pm]
[Current Mood |optimisticoptimistic]

So, it has been a while. Like everytime I get on here.

My life is coming around. I feel like I'm finally being rewarded. It feels good. I feel accomplished.
Went through school, then went on my externship, and they are going to hire me. I love where I'm at, and I love what I am doing. LOVE IT. This is all within less than a year's time. How amazing is that?

It gives me more to look forward to in my life.
I just feel so relieved.
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..we meet again [Jan. 15th, 2010|01:51 pm]
[Current Mood |boredbored]

I am excited.. I get to go buy some new scrubs today. Oh, the little things in life...
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(no subject) [May. 19th, 2009|11:27 am]
[Current Mood |groggygroggy]

Some things are just not enough.

I used to write such long entries.
Now I sometimes think that it would be a waste.

Yet I have so much to say.
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(no subject) [May. 11th, 2009|02:48 pm]
[Current Mood |depresseddepressed]

Everyone is going somewhere.
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(no subject) [Mar. 12th, 2009|11:20 am]
[Current Mood |draineddrained]
[Current Music |all that remains]

So, how does one really know?

I mean, I feel different ways at different times. Obviously.
But... right now I feel like if I left it would just be better. For everyone.

I want to be someplace where I can really tell I'm loved and cared for. I want to feel it. I want to see it. I want to know it.
I feel like I give my all and only get half in return.

What will it take?
I try to talk about the way I feel. It gets blown up into this huge thing. It gets taken the wrong way. It gets to the point where I feel like it doesn't even matter what I think or feel.

How do I know if this is what I really, truly want?

Yesterday I was happy. I think.
Today, I know I'm not.
Tomorrow I might be happy again.

Who the fuck knows.
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(no subject) [Mar. 3rd, 2009|10:34 am]
[Current Mood |boredbored]
[Current Music |all that remains]

So, I'm hanging out at home right now. Have to go to work at 4 today.

I love being at home with Riley. It is amazing to watch her grow. She is walking around so well already. She's only ten months old! Everywhere I go people are saying she looks like me, but I don't know if I see it yet. Well, I can in her eyes. She is so adorable, though!
I wen to Big Apple Bagels yesterday morning and the lady (I can't remember her name) that always was there making bagels when we went every Wednesday morning before school remembered me. She was thrilled about Riley... She even said Riley looks like me.

I'm so lucky to have Riley.
She has changed my life so much, and I just love it.
I couldn't imagine life without her now. Seeing her cute little face every morning makes me feel like I really have something to live for. When I walk in the door and she comes walking right towards me... Oh, it is just one of the best feelings in the world.
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i don't know where to go. [Dec. 10th, 2008|09:19 am]
[Current Mood |boredbored]
[Current Music |dead memories- slipknot]

So, I've come to realize that I miss a lot of things, a lot of friends, and a lot of places. To try and go back to any of that... things would never be the same.

I feel like I can't decided things for myself. I have this bittersweet feeling about where I am in life right now, and I don't know how to react. I don't have anyone to go to... everyone is far gone. Where did the time go, you know?

I feel like I just sit here all day, wasting away.
I want to change things, but still somehow keep them the same.
Which, is not even possible. Changing one thing now would change everything.
I need to do more, but I'm not sure how yet. There's so many restrictions and limitations.

I feel certain ways, but I'm afraid that those feelings are wrong and I don't know how to deal with them. I almost feel like I'm stuck.

I just think I'm not completely sure what I want.
Or maybe I'm just afraid to do what I want.
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blood stained sheets in the shape of your heart [May. 4th, 2008|09:01 pm]
[Current Mood |nostalgicnostalgic]

Oh, Livejournal...

It's been so long.

I miss the friends I once had. I miss hanging out in the bandroom. I miss bowling in the summer. I miss the parties.

I love the life I have right now... but there's so many things that I miss.
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gas cans and matches [Dec. 31st, 2007|08:14 pm]
[Current Mood |busybusy]

So, I hope everyone had a good Christmas.

I had to take my belly button ring out yesterday =[ It feels weird not having it. My belly is getting too big to have it, and it was getting uncomfortable sometimes.

But, my Christmas was extremely busy. I wasn't home for about 4 or 5 days straight, because I was busy going to so many different houses for exchanging gifts and dinner and stuff like that. It was fun, though.

That's really all I have to say about anything.
Hope everyone has a nice New Year's.
I'm staying at home and relaxing =]
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it's been a while [Nov. 16th, 2007|09:29 pm]
[Current Mood |happyhappy]

I got a kitten last week. I named him Jazz.
He's freaking adorable.
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And you know what is exciting?
I find out if I'm having a boy or a girl on Wednesday!

I have to work tomorrow night =[
I'm so sick of my job. I'm about to try to get a job at McLaren hospital, though. They are doing some hiring.. but I just don't want to get stuck with second shift all the time, because I'll never see my boyfriend. So, hopefully I'd be able to get a first or third shift.

I just bought Assassin's Creed today. I haven't played it yet, though. I've been playing Halo 3. I'll play it tomorrow, though. Ryan's playing it and it's looking pretty sweet. So, I hope I like it.

So, how is everyone doing???
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